Working Through It

Not as easy as I thought to implement change. I'm not sure if I'm just stuck in a rut or what other reasons there could be that I haven't made any progress. I know it's bad when I make deals with myself. Just another 15 minutes then I will (fill in blank). An hour later and I still haven't done whatever it was I needed to do. 

It's going to happen. Just not as rapidly as I expected. I think too much about things. I get overwhelmed by going over and over everything that needs done. Somehow it takes the wind out of my sails. 

If you picture a teeter totter and your goal is getting it to balance. On one end if everything you need to get done. It's very heavy and firmly on the ground. The only way to lighten that load and get the end off the ground is to complete some of the tasks so they move to the other end of the teeter totter. The problem is you are buried with the mess at the lower end and have to dig out and climb to the center so you have room to work and start achieving a balance. 

Each day more adds to the lower end making it harder and more frustrating to climb out from under it. It seems like the harder you try to just make it to the middle so you can start, the more ground you lose. At some point you end up stuck, unable to move, buried with no idea how to change the routine. 

This would be where I am currently. I've got to change it. No matter how small of a change. Something that can just relieve a bit of pressure then move on to the next step. I didn't get buried in a day. I won't dig out in a day either.